Tell us your vocation story.
My vocation story is one of the most incredible gifts God has given me! It’s filled with His grace and guidance. Being raised Catholic, I grew up with the Mass, in a Catholic community, and next to holy priests. Because of this positive exposure, I attended the “vocation camps” at St. Francis de Sales in middle and high school with my friends. Honestly, I just wanted to take a break from home! As I was graduating high school, college seminary seemed like a normal third or fourth option for me. But during this time, my belief in God, my beliefs about Him, were still developing, like an adolescent. Because of this, I easily declined college seminary since there wasn’t much serious vocational discernment in my life. God respected my choice and decided to give me some time! The next four years at Thomas Aquinas College in Santa Paula, CA, were transforming. My faith, my beliefs, my way of life were put to the test. I realized I didn’t take virtue, beauty, and truth very seriously, so I reacted to that realization by indulging myself. More fast cars, beautiful beaches, late nights. I didn’t slow down. I didn’t like to sit in silence. During this spiritual tug-of-war within my soul, the Lord beat me my senior year. I was playing in the inter-mural college championship football game when the greatest thing happened to me. I ran a simple 5-yard flat; the quarterback overthrew me (he admitted it later!), and I tore my shoulder diving for the ball. My Christmas break was spent much differently than I had anticipated: no fast cars, no noise, no late nights, no beaches. My break was incredibly quiet, and that’s when the Lord was finally able to reach me. After reading my school assignment (which was a first) The Brothers Karamazov, I was deeply moved by the themes of how divine love conquers nihilist skepticism. God healed both my body and soul the next six months and continues to do so. After that pivotal moment, I’ve been taking my faith seriously, making sure to prioritize Him and time with Him in adoration. About a year and a quarter later, I decided to leave my second degree studies and apply to the seminary. I guess God wants me here, or else I can’t explain how they accepted me!
What is the greatest challenge facing a man considering the seminary?
The greatest challenge facing a man discerning the seminary is overcoming anxious doubt. The uncertainty, both practically and spiritually, behind entering the seminary can cripple a man. I pray that men surround themselves with a good community and good friends to help them listen and reply to God’s call. One of the aspects about being in the seminary that I’ve appreciated more than anything is the confident affirmation of my discernment. The resources, support, and most importantly, prayer, have made me far more confident in my choices. For me, that has meant sticking it through here at de Sales, while for others, that’s meant parting ways with de Sales! Either way, discernment is impossible if this crippling doubt rules in a man’s heart, as it had mine, and so the help, confidence, and guidance a man receives at the seminary is an incredible grace from God to lead men closer to Him.
What is your favorite Psalm verse and why?
Psalm 51:17 is a beautiful verse: “The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.” (ESV) This verse brings to light the unfathomable justice, mercy, and love God has for every single person in the world. It is just to require a sacrifice of praise, yet merciful to accept the only thing we all have: broken and contrite hearts. The God who accepts these sacrifices without despising their lowliness is a Divine Love beyond comprehension. Beautiful!
Where do you like to go pray?
I like to pray in the presence of God. One of the greatest perks of the seminary is living right next to the chapel, and having 24/7 access to sit and listen to the Lord!
Where do you do your best studying?
I do my best studying in my room or in the library. Either way, a hot cup of coffee is an essential (decaf if it’s a late night!).
What saint should people ask to intercede for your vocation?
Any extra prayers sent my way are very much appreciated! St. Thérèse of Lisieux has worked overtime to help me learn to love my Lord. Prayers for her to continue her intercession would be incredible.